…because I can’t pick an emotion to stick with right now. I can’t sleep either. And I most certainly can’t finish packing and exercising as I promised myself I would hours ago.
Obviously, this..whatever this is..feeling is stemming from what’s in store tomorrow. Moving away for the first time. Living with a complete stranger for the next year (unless he turns out to be a serial killer, which would make that time significantly shorter). Seeing her again, for the first time since she became my “Summer” for real.
But this is just the sad side. There’s another side here. A new side for a new me. I’m doing my best to remain optimistic for all these things to fall into place just right. And I have faith that, if it doesn’t, other things are around the corner for me. I guess that leaves me stuck for tonight (the good old “wait and see”), and pretty damn tired too.