You seem like a complex individual. Do you ever think that if you were simpler, that your life would be filled with more happiness?
Without a doubt, I’d be more content with life. But being content and being happy are not one in the same as far as how I define them.
Think of happiness as a line. At the far left is sadness. At the far right is happiness. If I were to label the middle, I would call it content. Each situation in life, as I see it, is almost like absolute values in math. It can be negative or positive, but it is always equal in terms of how far away it is from zero (which is the middle of my scale). In life, I want extreme amounts of happiness. The only way to get that is to risk an equal measure of sadness from each situation or opportunity thrown my way.
So basically, I’d rather have a life of severe ups and downs than a life of mediocrity.
As far as life goes, I’d just like to fulfill the potential that others seem to see in me. So far, I’ve done nothing to accomplish that. I’m in need of a spark to push me in the right direction. I am very uncertain as to what I want to do with my life or if I’m any good at what I am trying to do in the first place.
As far as relationships, I just want a girl that pushes me. Not an Ike to my Tina, but just someone who will get me to do things more outside my comfort zone. I get very complacent very easily. That leads to boredom, and then I’m back where I started: someone who needs something happening at almost all times. I have started fights with girlfriends in order to have something to fix. Nothing ever serious, but my mind does not function correctly when nothing is changing around me or working towards something.
As far as friendships, I just need two things: a group that will push me and comfort me when I’m getting to a bad place, as well as a group that gives me a clear place within its ranks. Like, a clear label or definition as to what I bring to them. If I don’t know the expectations, I can’t ever fulfill the requirements. It’d be like playing social pin-the-tail-on-the-donkey.
Also, I’d love to marry Regina Spektor. That would render all of the above null and void. Good answer?